Okay let me finally update...

Okay let me finally update....june was especially tumultous for me.

during beginning of june i found a 2nd part time job at pizza hut. but around june 10 i think i had to spend almost 800 or 900 on new cooling system pump, thermostat, coolant flush,fan, oil change....it basically wiped out  my account of what fin aid i had remaining from the spring semester....about 2 weeks later i develop another coolant leak in another part of my car but its not major if i keep tabs w/ fluids/temp...so about a week after that i discover i need  a new starter so i hacked out about 200 or 250 doing that. mind you i only have 2 bit minimum wage jobs (pizza hut/sandwich places)  i'm living pay check to pay check this month i was close to getting my lights/water cut off i was about a week late paying both..and still unable to pay rent in its entirely b/c of my limited income....my parents dont know the extent of how i'm struggling b/c they are financially not able to help me anyway and moreover w/ all the heart problems (difiblator, blood pressure, heart meds etc I dont want her worrying/stressing)...my  cabinets and fridge is hella bare

i had wished i had a legal job early on from the get go to have experience some people say i should volunteer but my bills dont allow me that freedom...and believe me i probably sent off  at least 25 to 35 resumes/cover letters off  to various firms this spring...i probably could of sent out more once school got out...but i guess i got a little deflated....okay about mid june i got a call from a lady lawyer asking if i still searching employment to call her back but for some dumb reason i waited to late to about 1.5 to 2 weeks to call her back. by the time she had already hired a clerk but she still wanted to hire me as a research assisstant....

so now i'm working on this med mal case she has.  basically the a 15 yo boy had sickle cell...went for gallbladder surgery afterwards he complained about one side being not movable.they didnt do nothing about it the next day he dies.....turns out there is a machine they could predict ones (w/ sickle cell) chances of having a stroke etc...doc claims this machine was not available...but the machine test is pretty common in general and not expensive....

about 2 weeks ago i left my car windows down during the rain and now 2 of them are down and cant go back up so now i'm all ghetto w/ trash bags and tape over them  lol b/c i cant afford to at the moment to get them fixed

today when i went to take some sources to lady lawyer (the other dude lawyer who referred me to her) wanted to talk to me (they share the same building)   both of them was taken aback that i work at those type of places and not at a legal place and stresssed the importance of needing legal experience..i told him i tried and if not for the fact i had bills they need to be paid i would have gladly volunteered but that was not an option...so he asks me how many hours i work at those two places i tell him about 26 to 30....he asked me the pay rates....then he said he would like for me to work there and quit those places and pay me 8 an hour (more then either pay rates) but he said he would have to talk to his wife first about it so *crosses fingers and toes*

hmmm what else i'm excited about going home this weekend for the family reunion...i havent been home since mothers day its killing me dont get me wrong i dont home like that anyway but its just rough this summer to go thru this alone i have never been this low as i had been this summer and my family is my support/motivation...this is first summer i've not been at home....i have a lot to be grateful for...even tho they cant be there financially for me they always have my back in love/encourage/prayers...

2morrow i'm getting my hair done and i have a appt w/ dss regarding my application for food stamps( i dont have kids or anything if ur wondering but i'll be grateful for anything and my fridge/cabinets would be too)...i wonder if i should apply for medicaid since i'm on a roll here (lol) since i really dont have insurance (wish i did so i could get my wisdom teeth removed but thats neither here nor there).

well i've ranted on entierely too long but i had almost 2 months to cover forgive me :)....well until later! take care..be blessed...tip