Damonai’s Neighborhood

Go forth and fill your libraries with media.

Seriously, thanks to everyone for being so amazing and patient. You are the reason I love Vox.

~daisy

I was just told that the Amazon Conduit will be fixed by tomorrow. I will post here as soon as I get word that it's back up and running.

I know this has been frustrating and I am sorry there wasn't more I could do to make it less so. I really appreciate your patience though.

Cheers,

daisy

Bad news. As many of you have probably noticed, the Amazon Conduit was not fixed in the last week's release. Unfortunately, there was an undetected bug that is preventing the conduit from working.

We are working on this bug fix and hope to have the Conduit back up and running this week.

I will keep you posted.

Thank you for being so patient.

~daisy

Blog Action Day is every October 15th, when blogger are asked to post something about a single issue to show our strength and conviction as an online community. It's a great way to feel connected to the greater good, and the participation of so many bloggers to support the world's leading non-profit organizations is something you can do to help, right now. By blogging today, you're supporting some of the world's leading non-profits and sharing your voice for change.

This year's topic is climate change, and we'd love to read your thoughts on the topic. If you participate, leave us a link to your post in the comments, so we know to check out your post!

Go to www.blogactionday.org to learn more, get a badge for your blog showing your participation, and see some ideas for your post on climate change.

Can't wait to read your posts!

~ daisy

The Amazon Conduit will be working again on October 15, 2009. Thank you to everyone for your patience.

Have a great weekend,

daisy, Team Vox

In my last Team Vox post, I let you know that we're aware that the Amazon conduit is broken and that we're working to fix it. Many of you want to know when it's going to be fixed and I'm so sorry I haven't gotten back to you about that sooner.

Unfortunately, I don't have an exact date to give you, but rest assured, the Amazon conduit will be fixed in the coming weeks.

In the meantime, I'm about to finish my latest book and I could use a few suggestions as to what to read next, so... if you don't mind, let me know in the comments what's on your nightstand and/or what book you think I absolutely must read next.

Thanks! :)

daisy

Some of you may have noticed that right now you cannot add books from Amazon to your Vox library. Giving people a glimpse into what's on your night stand is important to many of you, so I just wanted to reassure you that we are doing our best to get this bug fixed. I'll keep you posted.

So sorry for the inconvenience.

Hope you have a great weekend!
daisy

Eating peanut butter from a spoon... (mmm)

I've been transcribing my first journal and decided to share these:

I was a child that believed, the woman I was, loved a young man, because he put a song in my heart. But then he put a tear in my eye when he said, I don’t believe the child is mine.

Because I loved you

A chance to live

I needed to give

You, in a better world

Your growth unfurled

Unrestricted

I predicted

You to survive

You need to know

 My love for you

Is still alive

And continues to grow

As you do, into a man

Your father will show

You things I never can

If you ever decide

You need to see

Here I’ll be

Always the same name

Something that will

Never change

You need to know

That it was NOT

Because I did not, BUT

Because I DID, love you

I gave you a chance

Instead of the romance

That young people believe

Will carry them through

A chance to succeed

In a family and not

Struggle in poverty

So for you to be happy

It fell to me

You needed

A true family

In that moment,

I had to decide

Which life held

The most benefit

In my distress

My only thought

Your happiness

We contacted Father Clements

From there, son

He found the solution

A family he knew

To raise you

When I gave

You to your father

The tear that was in

My eye

Forever

I hold in my heart

I knew I was

Giving you

The very best

I could, all because

I loved you

Can't sleep, may as well write. So much has happened since I last posted. I ended a very long-term relationship, I began a new journey with a new love. I'm healing, I'm growing. I feel great and I'm exhausted, both physically and emotionally. But its a great feeling...annnnddd....

I was in a very unhappy relationship for the better part of my life, really, I'm 42 with a birthday coming soon, and I met him when I was 20. The years I should have been in college, learning to live, I was raising a family with him.

Honestly, I'm not sure how I made it as long as I did without somebody getting critically hurt. I've rehashed the details of the who, what, when and why of how he hurt me for the better part of the last 3 weeks and I think I've finally made peace with what has happened.

I've shared with him what he has done to hurt me so badly, what led to me leave him. How every thing that was done, built up and caused me to close my heart to him nearly 5 years ago.

How I have never been as hurt and emotionally destroyed as I was with him and I will never be again.

That chapter in my life has closed.

I learned that had I been stronger and stood up for what I wanted, things would have never degraded to the point where they did. We both have had to take responsibility for the condition of our relationship. He and I. I gave him 2 chances to get it right, he didn't get it. Now that he acts like he does, frankly, my dear, I truly don't give a damn.

This whole ordeal has been a bit harder than I thought it would be, not because I want to be with him, but because being with him was all I knew.

I've never been on my own, never paid my own way, at least not by myself. I went from being at home to living with friends in CA, then back at home to living in a dorm at JSU then back at home. Next came him and kids, living at home with mom and g'mom then living with him for the past 14 years.

I never learned how to budget money, I never learned how to live alone. I never learned to be myself. I never learned to be an adult.

Now I am. Its exciting, its terrifying, its real. Goshdarnit....I have my own!

I have opened another chapter in my life. I'm stronger, I'm better and I have love in my life...but that's another post. *wink*

More to come, there's a lot more to share....

...i'm peaceful...